A BLACK SWAN WITH RED BILL IN CURRUMBIN ON THE GOLD COAST OF QUEENSLAND.
I might go down to Yellow Rock today. Sun is shining and the river looks good. I am proceeding with my obedience to clichés and not resisting as much as I thought I would. Mostly because its working. The HALTS are one technique for survival which have REALLY helped me. I seem to have been born with little sense of the ordinary needs of the human body and the years of substance abuse reduced my recognition of those needs even further. The simple HALTS message is near as clear as “What part of NO don’t you understand ?”
Don’t get too HUNGRY, ANGRY, LONELY, TIRED, SERIOUS.
Once again, I can give a good analysis of the HALTS. Once again, I’m not going to. Plain obedience is the theme for a month with only a few frills now and then.
|DON’T GET TOO|
|ANGRY or ANXIOUS|
|TIRED or THIRSTY|
|SAD or SERIOUS|
THE DANGER OF ANGER.
Late in the afternoon and rather besieged by unexpected expenses. $500 for the Starwagon. The gas has suddenly run 0ut. There’s another $120 to pay. Life down here in the bowels is often unexpected. As for me, I am enmeshed in cliché studies and in their application to daily life so I am focussed on the HALTS for the day and am not being distracted by other matters.
My own HALTS for the day:
For brekkie – a bagel and white tea for brekkie. Lunch – reheated pizza and coca cola. Dinner – steamed vegies. Might top up with vita brits. Not a healthy food day but I am not hungry.
Haven’t freaked out even with the gas running out, the car costing heaps, Centrelink overpaying and other odds and ends. Applied some tricks of the trade:
Pretty much used the same techniques as for ANGER. Did what I could and checked my reality and took a photo or two of the nearly full moon.
A day with the man at home. Interaction online with others including family and one phone call. Not lonely. Rarely am.
Tiredness is one thing which can do me in. Marian used to say it was the ONLY thing which could do her in. Its taken years for me to work out what makes me too tired. Due to several factors, I tire easily and then become very ill and depressed. Nowadays I know the point at which I am in need of rest and generally take that rest as deeply and for as long as I need to. Its much easier now when society asks less of me due to age. Tonight, I am not too tired. Comfortable is what I am other than having no gas for a shower.
|SAD and SERIOUS.||
Being of the depressive variety, I am often sad and serious. Tonight – I am not.
Now for a poignant quote on each of the HALTS.
Angry with someone?
ask yourself, what does this say about me?
ask yourself what reason do I have?
what’s the reason behind the reason?
It say more about you then the other person, we all are reflections, mirrors of each-other, hidden parts of ourselfs are being expressed by those who you feel angry with.
Bulstrode Whitlock, Cromwell’s envoy to Sweden, was one night so disturbed in mind over the state of his nation, that he could not sleep. His servant, observing it, said, ” Pray, sir, will you give me leave to ask you a question ? ” — ” Certainly.” — ” Do you think that God governed the world very well before you came into it ? ” — ” Undoubtedly.” — ” And do you not think that he will govern the world quite as well when you are gone out of it ? ” — ” Certainly.” — ” Then, pray, sir, excuse me : do you not think that you may trust him to govern it as long as you live ? ” No answer could be given, and composure and sleep followed.
Sit down. Breathe
in, breathe out.
Close your tired eyes.
Basho is sitting beside you—
a guest in his own house.